wake with me

wake with me when the sun rises

make love to me through the night

kiss my hand and stroke my hair

let me wake in the smell of my cigarettes and your wine

that pungent taste of sweat on our lips

lets poison our hearts

let the stars bear witness

to such transgressions of youth

the foolishness that comes with our actions

the murmurs of sweet nothings

declarations of eternal love in the late hours

yes, yes spend the night here with me

regret it in the morning

when the poison has worn off

and my scent begins to fade

call me at noon just to hear me speak

to see if you can relive it

that familiar feeling

and when you can’t;

take a breath and sigh

remember when the sun came through the window

remember me looking into your eyes

take another breath and sigh

then let me go as the sun sets

burnout

her hair drapes her face

sweat dripping from her chin

those marble eyes are sad tonight

yet her cheeks remain high

her lips draw a smile

they heed not to the blur that is her world

the crowd sways by

she moves with it

heart racing for more

aching inside

wanting that next time

her hair is tangled now

she smiles no more

his grunts move her

she knows not who he is

where hes from

just where he is

Good morning my sweet,

What a pleasant day is it not?

The sun rises a dark pink

An ode to last night, hah!

Your taste still lingers on the tip of my tongue

            the sweat stains my moustache

            it’s pungent smell rising into my nostrils

            ahh, what a night it was.

Was it not my dear?

Your blank smile amuses me

            Mona Lisa are you now?

You feign indifference.

I see.

A valiant attempt,

One which I will not fall for.

You aren’t the first to try this,

They’ve done this before you know?

Still no answer?

Tell me this then,

            Were your juices not flowing down the side of my mouth?

            Were you not bellowing my name like a gutted whore?

            Were you not cursing your god to be fucked harder?

Are these all lies?

            Did you not cut into my back with your claws?

            Did you not swallow me whole in a hurried attempt of gratitude?

Still that fucking smile..

You don’t get it do you?

The hugs,

the smiles,

the  sweet nothings don’t mean a thing to me!

STOP FUCKING SMILING!

I knew it would end this way…

I can’t help my self.

Is it not only natural that I do as my heart pleases?

            What my mind obliges me to do?

It always ends this way

I will burn you.

You smile.

I will fucking BURN your heart.

Your insides will be charred black

Your blood will adorn my walls.

And I will laugh.

For that is all you are to me.

A way to get my fix.

It is not your affections that I crave but your soul

I want it,

            Inside me.

I want all of you.

Your everything.

But don’t worry,

After this morning, you have company

You’re not the first, and most certainly not the last.

A link in a long chain.

No different than the last cigarette in a pack

Alas my love; you still smile…

You know that I will always love you, don’t you?

I truly will.

You were different; you were the one for me.

But now you’re gone.

I can see it in your blank eyes,

You smile but it isn’t you who smiles.

It is time to say goodbye my love…

I love you.

Now where’s that fucking shovel?

I'm Back

Its been a while since I had posted here. After a short hiatus and much wine I've decided its time to come back. Though my friends will probably give me shit for the name of the blog, I've decided they can simply go fuck themselves. Anyway, though few will ever read this. Here's some stuff I've been writing since I've been gone. cheers.